She looks at him.
“I’m so sorry Ma’am,” he says again, contrition written on his face.
“Did you forget, or did you just decide it wasn’t important?” she asks.
“I just didn’t… think of it. I forgot Ma’am…” he offers, knowing his answer is inadequate.
“I see.”
“I have no excuse, I’m truly sorry Ma’am.”
“How many rules do you have? How many things do I ask for boy?”
“Five Ma’am, there are only five.”
“Do you think that’s unreasonable? Do you think that’s too much for you?”
“No! No Ma’am… I just… I just fucked up… please…”
“Do I have to remind you every single time? Is that it? Really?”
“No Ma’am. I will do better, I have no excuse. I’m so sorry…”
“Right… well since you can’t follow the rules, I am revoking all of them for the next half hour. You will be a submissive without rules. You will not call me Ma’am, you will not show me any particular respect, you are free to do whatever you want… no rules. Do you understand?”
His face shows his confusion. “Yes Ma’a… Yes. Very unexpected, but crystal clear.”
He looks relieved at the punishment.
“You have my name written on your body. Go now and scrub it off.”
His face drops, but he knows better than to argue.
“Ok…”
He trudges off to the bathroom. When he returns he has his hand under his shirt, and she knows his fingers are touching the redness where he has scrubbed her name off his skin. He looks pathetic.
They sit and talk for a while, about an upcoming wedding, about plans for the weekend, she watches him, knows he is uncomfortable, he is looking more and more miserable.
Finally she asks, “How does this feel? To have no rules?”
“It’s horrible…”
“You thought it was a trivial punishment, a welcome respite… that it was going to be easy?”
“I was confused at first, then the penny dropped and I felt sick, it makes me feel sick. I understand the punishment, it’s a good one.”
“What is it?”
“To find out what it’s like when you don’t care what I do, to just do whatever I want, to feel as if I’m not your submissive, I miss being under your control already, I feel lost…”
She nods. “I want you to understand what happens if you don’t follow the rules. It doesn’t work does it?”
He shakes his head, his eyes downcast. “No, it really doesn’t.”
She looks at her watch. “Ok, the half hour is up… the punishment is over, boy.”
He smiles broadly, relief written on his face. He drops to his knees and looks up at her, “Thank you Ma’am.”
She puts her name back on his skin to claim him, to bring him home, and feels his pleasure at being back in his place.
“I really missed your rules immensely, even just for half an hour, I like having them. They remind me who I am, they remind me that I’m yours, Ma’am.”
She nods and traces her name written on his skin with her fingertips.
“I know,” she replies.
She cups his chin and lifts his face to hers, leaning down to hold his gaze.
“…and yes, you’re mine.”
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Thank you for writing this post. Thank you for explaining, so well and so clearly, why rules are important and why it’s important that you care about those rules. Why having rules is a communication – a two way street. That a sub just following rules is like shouting into the wind – it just never answers back.A post for my beloved to read, I hope.Jamie
Jamie: You are most welcome. And you are exactly right… it’s a communication that has to work both ways or it just doesn’t work.I hope your beloved gets something out of it also.Ferns
But doesn’t such relinquishing of control hurt you, as the domina, too? XXXXX
anonymous XXXXX: Interesting question, puppy.Just to clarify, revoking rules is not relinquishing control. I have control whether there are a million rules, or none.And did it hurt me to revoke those rules? I assume you mean because *I* might have felt a sense of the loss of them, as he did. No, not at all, my focus was on his reactions, to see if the lesson was being successfully learnt. Ferns
Only almost 2 years after the original post: I am a slave to Mistress P on EP and FL and I feel so very fortunate to be accepted into that position. I truly feel She cares. When I read something like this that seems to echo what our relationship is like I am greatly moved and cry emotional tears of joy. Thank you for the reminder.
MPs slave tommy: “When I read something like this that seems to echo what our relationship is like I am greatly moved and cry emotional tears of joy. Thank you for the reminder.”
*smile* I am happy for you and your relationship, and glad that this resonated with you. And you are so welcome!
Ferns
After missing reading “Punishment” I knew I had read one that really clicked with me emotionally and I had to go find it. This was it. This was the one I said affected me the very first time I saw it. I seen the punishment coming and it brought tears to my eyes.
‘Right… well since you can’t follow the rules, I am revoking all of them for the next half hour. You will be a submissive without rules. You will not call me Ma’am, you will not show me any particular respect, you are free to do whatever you want… no rules. Do you understand?’”‘You have my name written on your body… go now and scrub it off.’”
Powerful, got the point across and very stingy…that would definitely sting. He was stronger than me I believe as soon as you said it to me I would have been a blubbery mess begging you not to make me do it.
~laughs~ guess I am weak that way. The disappointment factor and especially having her name removed off of me like I am no longer hers, yes that would be devastating.
Respectfully,
mysticlez
*smile* I actually thought it was going to be ineffective when he looked relieved at the punishment. I mean, it was only half an hour. But yes, it worked a treat.
Punishments have to be tailored to suit the sensitivities of the submissive. My intent for this relatively minor transgression was not to slam someone him in the face with a sledgehammer. If I thought he would be truly upset by it, I’d have chosen something much less traumatic.
I would hope your dominant would do the same given how seriously this kind of punishment would have impacted you.
Ferns
“I’d have chosen something much less traumatic.”
I have no doubt about that with you. It was not traumatic and wouldn’t be traumatic but yes it would be a slam to my chest. Not the no rules, that would a very long half hour but not the slam to the chest.
The hit in the chest would have come from hearing her say “You have my name written on your body. Go now and scrub it off.”
It takes a great deal for me to give that much of myself to anyone and I won’t give it to just anyone. So if I have given myself to someone that much to want to be her property to have her name on me then to hear her be so disappointed in me to want to take that away. Yes, that would leave me hurting very much.
“To find out what it’s like when you don’t care what I do, to just do whatever I want, to feel as if I’m not your submissive, I miss being under your control already, I feel lost…”
Yes, it would leave me feeling lost just like he said. However, its much deeper meaning to hear that to me. Yes, for that person who I have given, not easily, my whole self to to not care what I do. It is the same to me as being nothing to her and as if she doesn’t want me any longer and that hits a spot with me.
Respectfully,
mysticlez