I have thought that of the men I have loved.
Along with “He never talks about her the way he talked about me” and “He never treats her the way he treated me”.
All thoughts bound up in love and nostalgia and memories.
But mostly, in those moments of brutal honesty, I know it’s pure ego with more than a touch of smug satisfaction. I touched those intimate parts of him, they are marked, and … Continue Reading
My body is on hiatus. Maybe it’s been the stress of an uncertain living situation for so long and then the actual move. Or maybe it’s recent disappointments worming their way into my psyche. I don’t know.
If I had a penis, pretty sure I’d be going through some kind of erectile dysfunction issue right now.
I try to masturbate every day. Usually in the morning before I get up.
It’s not some grand and … Continue Reading
We’ve seen a lot of it, mostly in fashion and music.
We tend to think it’s a relatively recent phenomenon in marketing (though Unspeakable Axe has been posting ‘Found Femdom‘ in mainstream media for years).
This ad campaign is from 2004. Umbro Vigo is a sports brand, and this ‘Sado’ series to advertise footwear is by a Brazilian agency. Stereotypical: yes. Exploitative: sure.
But say what you want, these are stunning. Not least … Continue Reading
‘ How To Find A Dominant Woman‘ by Sharyn Ferns, Cover art by Submissive Guy ComicsI talked about my book already, but I thought I’d share some highlights.
Firstly, I have to say that finding a partner is hard. Finding an F/m partner is even harder. It just is. Not just for submissive men, but for dominant women also, I should know (feel like I should start singing ‘Single Ladies’ now…).
Trust me, … Continue Reading
I’ve only been in love a few times and each time I ‘knew’ it differently. The realisation of love, the clarity of ‘I love you’ arrives for me in different ways. Sometimes a wave of everything that came before just catches up with me, sometimes some piercing emotion that almost lifts me off my feet.
I can romanticise those moments, but the one I remember most clearly, the one that perhaps shocked me the most … Continue Reading
Last year I received this email out of the blue.
… Continue ReadingI hope that you might by chance remember me… We met online some years ago, 90’s. Your tag was SweetAs… I asked you what you were Sweet as and your reply was chocolate ice cream melting on a summer day. My name is [redacted]. You and I enjoyed a lot of correspondence. Your first website had pixel that could be clicked on to see the
Sometimes I feel like my entire life is a performance for some unknown audience outside of myself.
I had a good cry this morning. Like you do when shit happens.
I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and wondered who it was for.
If I write about it here, was it for you, dear readers?
Some angsty vulnerable moment that I subconsciously know I will share later? Some act that I am performing for … Continue Reading
