More randomness

I get oddly stressed when I lose the inspiration to write. Either I don’t have anything I want to say, or I have so many things that I can’t nail any of them down and make them come to life. Lately, it’s been the former. I know it’s no big deal, it will come back, but the feeling is disconcerting. Like there’s a void that I fear will just get bigger and bigger.

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Loves: 15
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Zing zing, or not

I’ve mentioned before that I sent holy-fuck-beautiful-eyes a random message out of the blue, not because he was a potential partner, just because he was beautiful and his OKCupid profile was smart and interesting. My profile there is all about the D/s: I don’t ‘hide’ it in secret code somehow, so he saw all that up-front. We agreed very early on that we weren’t a match, but still, the light conversation and flirting continued.

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Loves: 15
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What I want

You have to give me what I want.

But it’s not enough for you to give me what I want.

You have to *want me to get what I want*.

But that’s still not enough either.

You have to want to be the one to give me that.

And even then, it’s not enough.

You have to *convince me* that you will give me what I want, that you want me to get what … Continue Reading

Loves: 28
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Lost

The first time I had him inside me. I was lounging low and careless on the couch, legs wrapped around him. We had been kissing, desperately and passionately grabbing at each other. I don’t remember our clothes coming off, or even if they were off.

He knelt before me, pushed himself excruciatingly slowly into me, joined at the cock and cunt.

He closed his eyes, his head went back, a blind prayer offered to the … Continue Reading

Loves: 14
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My sent emails XL: On younger men

I guessed his age at late 20s: He’d just turned 30. He made a joke about his immaturity giving it away. Which was amusing, but entirely untrue. He’s an articulate, smart, engaging man who has only been in my inbox for a very short while, but already I enjoy him a lot.

It’s interesting, the age thing. I’ve written various pieces about it before, but my guessing relatively accurately how old he was led me … Continue Reading

Loves: 5
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On hate mail

I’m lucky. I don’t get a lot of hate mail despite my prolific presence on the internet.

But I do get some. From strangers with whom I have never interacted as far as I know.

The last couple:

“You sound high maintenance and up yourself” – 58M

“Old disgusting bitch” – 31M

These are mild, I know many people get much worse. I recorded this one that was so over the top that it made … Continue Reading

Loves: 8
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My threesome

Once upon a time, in a land far far away, my girlfriend and I were play partners with a male dominant. My limits were no kissing, no sex, no oral. He was allowed to touch me, but I wasn’t interested in touching him.

My girlfriend had no such limits, and was astride him when I walked into the bedroom we were all sharing.

He beckoned me onto the bed.

I said, “No thanks.”

He tried … Continue Reading

Loves: 13
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