For you…

The first boy I ever loved and I are still in touch. He lives in the UK, we catch up when we are anywhere in proximity, which of course isn’t often.

A recent situation reminded me of a sweet moment with him, of which there are many. Sweet moments, I mean.

He had invited some of his friends over for dinner. He was cooking. I was hovering in the kitchen with him, sipping a cold … Continue Reading

Loves: 17
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Holy fuck beautiful eyes

I’ve taken to calling him ‘holy-fuck-beautiful-eyes’ (in honour of the fabulously articulate email I sent him on a whim), which is the worst nickname EVER but it makes me smile every time I use it.

He’s not a match for me (he agrees with this), and I am unlikely to meet him (I’ve told him this), and yet, there is that elusive ‘something’ there that draws me in and I love it and I hate … Continue Reading

Loves: 12
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Another chat with me!

© Masocast by UnspeakableAxe

My second Masocast interview is live (the first is here)!!

Edited to add: All of my Masocast interviews can be found here (yes, I did more :)).

A wonderfully sweet benefactor offered for-real moneys to ask me some very interesting and thoughtful questions, I spill my guts, laugh a lot, and blather more, and the lovely Axe pretends he isn’t just talking to me for the money!

I also do an audio reading of … Continue Reading

Loves: 15
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A young Domme’s sexuality

This is my response in a discussion on fetlife.com about whether women come into their dominance later than men, and if so, why that might be. It explains from my personal perspective how I struggled some with getting what I wanted when I was young, so I thought it worth posting here.

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From my perspective as a young woman out in the world, I was never free to exercise any sexual initiative in the … Continue Reading

Loves: 22
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On being difficult

In my personal ad, I describe myself as “difficult’ (among other things). This is not a cute way of pretending I am some badass bitch. I’m not.

But boy, am I particular.

And in the context of getting to know someone, there seems to be a very narrow set of things that ‘work’ for me.

There are some things that hit me just right, that make me laugh out loud, that make me do … Continue Reading

Loves: 10
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Defining ‘the pretty’

I make no secret of the fact that I love the pretty.

It’s true. I do.

And I know that I might give the impression that I have a very narrow definition of what that means.

But that’s not true.

Objectively, I have a body type that I like on a man. For sure. It’s tall, V-shaped, with lean muscle (not bulky), an adonis belt, a six pack, veins that stand out, narrow waist, wide … Continue Reading

Loves: 21
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Flailing

I am being inspired by pieces I am reading out on the internet:

This, about crushes.

This, about lost loves.

This, about sweetness.

I want to write about my fleeting hopeful crushes, about things past, about incredible sweetness.

I have been busy and overwhelmed recently by Christmas, by people, by my book, by practicalities, and it saps my energy for writing. But I feel it bubbling now, which I love, … Continue Reading

Loves: 10
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