I knock and wait.
You open the door, your expression at first one of gentle questioning… when you see me your eyes widen, you gasp, like a cartoon character, comical and odd. You almost shake your head to try to clear it. I can see your mind ticking over, a million questions immobilising you…
I smile, savouring your confusion, it is incredibly hot, that vulnerable look, I see you unconsciously opening up, it is immediate and involuntary, as if your skin peels away from your body and falls at your feet, leaving you raw. I see your surrender and it hits me straight to my core, I want to drop to my knees and cry for the impact it has on me, and I know, I know that you feel it even stronger than I do, it is visceral, feral and makes me shake from the inside out and oh my god, oh my god, oh my god… that… that… fuck fuckfuckfuck.
I reach out and grab you with a hand around your throat. You whimper, your mouth opens, whether to exclaim or to utter some protest I don’t know and don’t care, I shove you back into the apartment, against the wall, and I take your mouth, violence and teeth, sucking and biting at you like a source of food. I fuck into you like I want to get to your insides, you make a sobbing sound that breaks me in two, makes me angry.
I feel tears rising, “Fuck You, FUCK YOU, fuckyoufuckyou!”
I shove you back into the apartment, back back back until you are against the bed, and I snarl and shove you onto it. I follow you, landing awkwardly on you with a thump, I look at your face and you are crying, your face crumpled and wet, a high pitched sobbing coming from you, your mouth saying words that I can’t make out.
We are both crying and I am so so angry with you.
“You fucking little bitch, Fucking. Little. Bitch!!!”
“I know, I’m so sorry, so sorry, so sorry, sosorry Ma’am.” Your voice is a broken sobbing, and I hate you for it.
I kiss you blindly, teeth clashing, your lip bleeds and I suck at it, you writhe under me, your hands held above your head as if you are bound, and you open up for my gnashing teeth, wanting to be hurt, aching for it, reaching for it.
Your openness scares me, you have no resistance, I can feel it, I could kill you now and you would welcome it. You sob into my mouth and it breaks my heart.
I hiss at you, “I missed you so much, I missed you so much, you fucking bitch!”
You make a pathetic sound, look up at me, “I missed you too, I missed you, Imissedyoumissedyou…”
Your body shakes, you reach up for me, craning your neck to get at me, your eyes wet, you can hardly kiss me back for the crying, and when I slap your face, I feel your relief. I slap you over and over, you hold my gaze between slaps, watching me, willing me on.
“Please, please, pleasepleaseplease…” You whimper at me and god, you are so beautiful, I want to tear you to pieces.
I tighten my grip on your throat, you close your eyes, another strangled ‘please…’ slips out. I nod and start to methodically take you apart.
19 comments
Awesome writing Ferns
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Wow.
Wow nice
Coug
Can I ask–did this happen recently?
Sometimes I wake up in a horribly submissive mood that makes it difficult to do just about anything because I'm too distracted thinking about…well…stuff.
This didn't help.
I always smile when I see in my reader that you've written a new post. And today's was a particularly good one.
Not really helping me with my impending reunion with my ex, though Ferns – dammit! Thanks for piling the hot and inappropriate expectations even higher :P
J.
Happy pet, N, Cougs: Thank you so much! *happy glow*
Ferns
Anonymous: “Can I ask–did this happen recently?”
Of course you may ask.
And no, this was born out of snippets of a dream… one of those ones that feels so real that you wake up with your heart racing and the emotions right on the surface. Devastating.
Ferns
Brids: “This didn't help.”
Sorry Brids!
Ferns
J: “I always smile when I see in my reader that you've written a new post. And today's was a particularly good one.”
Thank you, J!
“Not really helping me with my impending reunion with my ex, though Ferns – dammit!”
Eep!! When is it? We want to know everything! Good luck!
Ferns
This post sounds like one of those “Happily ever after” stories. A bit scary, but happy nonetheless.
This post is still wonderfully avatistcally enthralling on so many levels Ferns. GREAT job babes each time I read it I savour it.
Coug
slapshot: “This post sounds like one of those “Happily ever after” stories. A bit scary, but happy nonetheless.”
*smile* I wish!
Ferns
Coug: “This post is still wonderfully avatistcally enthralling on so many levels Ferns. GREAT job babes each time I read it I savour it.”
Thank you thank you!! *blows the perfect arsed one a kiss*
Ferns
The passion of your posts always takes my breath away. I love the poetic violence of it, just the expulsion of such strong emotions.
Wish I'd had this dream ;)
Kathryn
Kathryn: “The passion of your posts always takes my breath away. I love the poetic violence of it, just the expulsion of such strong emotions.”
That is such a beautiful comment to make, Kathryn… thank you *smile*
Ferns
A Gem. “Whimper” Very talented writer and vision.
*smile* Thank you Tim, it is lovely when I get comments on old pieces of writing. They get lonely back here…
Ferns